Thursday, February 3, 2011

I was just thinking

Ever time I lay down to take a nap or even to go to bed, my mind just races. I can't stop thinking about everything and anything.It is crazy.

I sometimes like to lay down and just let my mind wander. I think off what I have been through with this decease and how I have dealt with it.I worry about Alex and Dennis when they are away from home.I worry about dad and hope he is doing ok.Then I can wonder to what to make for supper or if I am getting the chance to go out when Dennis is off, I hate that I have to wait for him to take me out because I can't drive anymore. That is hard to think off, all the stuff that I can't do anymore because off MS.It has taken a lot away from me already but I am still able to get out and I can still live my life as well as I am able. Can't give in to the decease.

Always thinking, keeps the brain healthy.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Another day!

I had a good day with Dennis.We went to Tims for coffee and had a nice chat. I am so glad that we are still able to do that. I love him and he is so good to me.

When I was first diagnosed with MS he was there for me and has helped me through some really rough times.He is there for me for the physical and the mental times that I go through.I know he will do what ever he can to make me comfortably and to help me with the pain I go through. I know he feels bad when I am having a bad day. He worries about me I know.I try to not let him know how bad I feel because I don't want him to worry.

I do not worry about how this decease is going to affect me in the years to come. I believe that there will be a cure for this soon and hopefully in the next few years. At least I feel a cure coming soon. This is a decease that you have to deal with in a positive state off mind.There is no cure for this yet but I beleive that if you deal with it one day at a time then you will be ok.I am not one to over read about this kind off thing and I don't dwell on it too much or talk about it too much.I don't want to have people feel sorry for me as I am not dying and I know this is not curable yet but I beleive it is what you make it.
Anyway life is what you make it.Live life and be happy